I hope you read my previous post about my daughter, Amber who passed away on July 24 rather suddenly.
I knew God would not give me more than I can handle, but I did not know how I, my husband and Jennifer would make it through Amber’s visitation and funeral. So many people came to the visitation and stood in line 45 minutes to an hour just to let us know how much Amber meant to them. She had been such an inspiration to others. Amber never complained about what she couldn’t do, she always made the most of every day. The most touching thing about her was her big blue eyes and her big contagious smile. She touched many hearts in her nearly 30 years on this earth. So many people from high school she had not seen in years came to pay their respects and to let us know what a sweetheart and a trooper she had been all through school. Many of her classmates had seen Amber go from a normal active young girl to being confined to a wheelchair in a few short years.
The day before the funeral Jennifer, my sister and I went to buy Amber new clothes to wear to be buried in. She of course had a closet full but she had to have something new! Jennifer picked out a top just like she had worn several weeks prior which Amber had liked and of course the color was purple. Purple was Amber’s favorite color. We found the same top in Amber’s size and both my daughters had on the same top at visitation. We all wore purple (yes even my husky husband wore a purple shirt for Amber) for the visitation. When they were younger I had always sewn their clothes and most of the time they were dressed alike. They were so close in age many people thought they were twins. I thought this was so sweet of Jennifer to want to be dressed like her “big sister” one last time on this earth.
Jennifer had mentioned that she wanted to speak at Amber’s funeral. I thought to myself how could she do this? When her heart was hurting so much over our loss she wanted to speak? She is a very eloquent speaker and has a gift for speaking, but I did not know how she would make it through it. I was doing good to be there in the chapel much less get up and speak in front of everyone there. Jennifer got up after our pastor spoke and after she spoke there was not a dry eye in the chapel. She spoke of childhood memories and how sassy Amber could be at times. She spoke of what loving parents we had been and how God had called Amber home to his Kingdom to live with him until we all meet again. She spoke of how we would live for Amber and God would get us through this difficult time. I was so proud of her. She is an amazing young lady!
During high school Amber met an amazing young man her junior year of high school. They became instant friends. He has a sister that is deaf and he knew what living with a disability was like. He was the best “guy friend” Amber ever knew besides her Daddy. Her friend knows sign language and he signed the song “I Can Only Imagine” by Mercy Me. It was so beautiful and touching! He speaks so eloquently with his hands! I know it was very difficult for him to stand there and sign the song but he did it to honor Amber and her precious life. After Jennifer spoke and Amber’s friend signing the song everyone was touched that these two young people that loved Amber so much and were hurting so much inside had the courage to get up and do what they had done. It was God giving them the strength to do what they thought they should do for Amber. Jennifer said she felt a calm come over and it was if God was there by her, comforting her.
It has been a very difficult 12 weeks since Amber went to Heaven. My husband and I are taking one day at a time and know that God is good. We are lonely in this house and often do not know what to do with ourselves. Jennifer lives about an hour away and recently became engaged which has helped with our grief. We all have good days and bad days as everyone does but I will always have my faith and no one can take that away from me.
Thank you for reading Amber’s story and maybe she has touched your hearts!
I would love to hear your comments.
By the way, Jennifer has started a blog - WeddingBellsandFairyTales.blogspot.com it is listed in my sidebar.