Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy New Year and Thank You!
been so supportive to me and my family as I have written about my life and my adventures of trying to decorate my home, sew, quilt, cook and garden.
I posted so many times about Jennifer's wedding plans this past year. I think Jennifer finding the love of her life has kept me going. Knowing that she has someone now to go home to every night and to love her like she deserves to be loved.
Planning a wedding was one of the most stressful but enjoyable things a mother can help her daughter do. Jennifer was 28 when she married so she pretty much had all of her wedding planned. I think every little girls dreams about the day she will be married. It was one of the happiest and most bittersweet days of my life. I know Amber was there in spirit and a special tribute was so well thought out by Jennifer for her sister. It was very heart warming. I can't believe Jennifer has been married 6 months now! How time flies. I plan on having grandbabies one day to spoil and love!
But most of all thank you for your support especially when I have posted about Amber. Losing a child has to be the worst thing a parent could go through. I read somewhere the other day that a parent felt like their heart had been amputated after losing a child. I feel like mine has sometimes been torn into pieces. I know mine will never be the same ... a part of it is broken forever. There have been days when I have not wanted to go on with life. It has been very difficult ... especially the holidays. We just have to start with new memories as hard as it is. I know I have my husband, Jennifer and her new husband Jeremy.
The holidays are the most difficult when my husband and I are here alone. I never expected to be an empty nester so soon. We expected Amber to live many more years. I spoiled Amber beyond what should be allowed for a child (LOL) but I have no regrets!
I plan on trying to get organized in 2011. We bought several large storage shelves for our basement so I can get things off the floor. I am packing away Christmas items and instead of stacking boxes on top of each other and having an avalanche, I am going to organize my new shelving units.
Now I am ready for Winter to be over and move on to Spring! We had our first White Christmas with all the snow I want and now I am ready to have yardwork to do. I love to plant my flowers and veggies in the garden. Just digging in the dirt and pulling weeds helps me mentally! Is that crazy or what!
I have so many sewing projects I need to finish and I actually worked on a quilt last night. I want to finish scrapbooking projects that have been too emotional to work on (Amber's) but hopefully I will complete what we began. There is plenty I need to do and I will hopefully finish them this New Year.
My husband and I are spending a quiet New Year's Eve here at home. Jennifer and Jeremy are coming tomorrow to have lunch with us. I "really" need another meal! That's all I have done is eat!
We never know what the New Year will hold for us. Just hold your loved ones tight and tell them "I Love You" every chance you get!
God Bless You and Hugs,